Bella shares stories from growing up on her family's farm and the complicated process of figuring out what parts of that life she wants to carry forward—and what parts she needs to let go of. Addi reflects on the many times her own plans have been interrupted by music, unexpected people, new places, and opportunities she never could have planned for.

Together, they explore what happens when you stop trying to force a certain version of your life into existence and start paying attention to where life is actually taking you.

From childhood memories and farm life to spontaneous adventures, unexpected kindness, music, and a very questionable night swim, this is a conversation about surrendering to change, honoring where you come from, finding your people, and embracing the fact that none of us are meant to follow the exact same path.

Maybe tradition isn't about doing things the way they've always been done.

Maybe the tradition is surrender.

In this episode of Divine Dirtbag, I’m telling the stories behind my complicated relationship with the “traditional path.”

From dropping out of college and committing to full-time van life, to chasing music, getting lost in the desert, skydiving, taking random jobs to survive, and finding myself in some very unexpected places along the way, I’ve spent a lot of my life choosing the road less traveled.

I’ll tell you about the people who represented the life I thought I was supposed to want, the experiences that pulled me further away from that path, and the moments that made me question whether I was actually running toward freedom, or just running away.

Because after years of doing everything my own way, I’m starting to see the traditional path differently. Maybe school isn't the enemy. Maybe stability isn't a trap. Maybe having roots doesn't mean losing your freedom. Maybe the point was never to reject the map. Maybe it was to figure out who gets to draw it.

This episode is about finding your own path, questioning expectations, following what lights you up, and learning the difference between freedom and running away.

In the first episode of Divine Dirtbag, I'm sharing the three stories that changed the course of my life.

We'll start with the moment my carefully crafted plan fell apart, and how an unexpected detour became my first step into van life. Then we'll travel through lonely nights in the Adirondacks, a last-minute WWOOF opportunity in Vermont, and the chance encounter that made me realize life on the road was actually possible. Finally, we'll follow the winding path that led from road trips and national parks to building my first van, working back at home all winter, and choosing the road all over again.

This episode is about surrender... not the giving-up kind, the trusting kind. It's about the difference between giving up and letting go, why the best things in life rarely happen according to plan, and what becomes possible when you loosen your grip on certainty and trust the detour.

If you've ever felt stuck, outgrown the life you planned, or wondered if the universe has a different path waiting for you, this episode is for you.

Sometimes the life you're looking for begins in a Walmart parking lot.

This podcast is for anyone who has ever felt a little lost, a little crazy, or a little out of the ordinary. For the dreamers, the wanderers, and the ones who know there's more waiting for them on the other side of comfort.

In this first episode, I'll share where it all began: how I started van life, why I left behind the life I was "supposed" to live, and what you can expect from this podcast. We'll dive into the themes that have shaped this journey: money, surrender, fear, intuition, community, spirituality, and the messy beautiful process of becoming.

I'll share why I'm telling these stories, what lessons I've learned along the way, and give you a glimpse into the adventures, chaos, and transformations still to come.

So get ready to break out of the box, question everything you thought you knew, and get excited to dance a little after this.

Welcome to Divine Dirtbag.