Cosmic Triggers with Sam

Monday Morning Ramble: The Hidden Power of Pain

Samantha — Mon, 16 Mar 2026 11:00:00 GMT

Bryce and I explore many topics in this weeks Monday Morning Ramble. I was curious as to what it means to constantly be asked to be outside of ourselves. What would we find out if we looked inward? What could change?

Chapters

00:00 Setting Up for the Podcast
11:05 Political Strategy and Manipulation
24:00 Quick Information and Political Discourse
30:59 The Cynicism of Politics
36:04 The Difficult Path of Politics
41:59 Choosing Sides and Alliances
01:10:18 The Journey of Self-Discovery

Wisdom Wednesdays - Slowing Down

Samantha — Wed, 08 Dec 2021 13:35:47 GMT

Are we going as fast as we need to? That’s all I ask. A short one about nature and it’s speed and strength and whether or not we’re working in accordance with it. Enjoy ❤️

Monday Morning Rambles - Our Inner Child

Samantha — Mon, 02 May 2022 13:08:16 GMT

I spent the past few days in West Virginia to climb, and instead learned a bunch of stuff about myself and just people in general. We have a child inside all of us who knows so much and can help us in so many ways, if we just listen to them. One of the most important episodes in my opinion. I hope you find something here ❤️

Navigating the Political Landscape and Truth: A Journey of Healing

Samantha — Mon, 16 Jun 2025 12:00:00 GMT

Hello friends. In this conversation, Jason Grachanek, a master tabaquero, and I explore the complexities of political polarization, the nature of good and evil, and the importance of personal responsibility in healing societal issues. This is AI's summed up version of it, but it's true. We discuss the hero's journey as a metaphor for personal growth, the role of fear in shaping political beliefs, and the illusion of democracy. This is a podcast episode for the times, where Jason emphasizes the need for individual healing to address collective grief and the significance of understanding human nature in the context of politics. We discuss the complexities of truth, the quest for unity and evolution, and the importance of connection to nature and community.

You can find more of Jason on his podcast, The Universe Within https://open.spotify.com/show/7C5UIeKqJQdGLNPob9yJh7?si=33d5e0ed464347b3

And on Instagram! @jasongrechanik

We’re all Confused: How it Happened and Why it’s Important that We Are

Samantha — Tue, 21 Jan 2025 20:24:48 GMT

Hello friends! We are in some crazy times. It’s hard to know what is the truth, who to believe, where to get information from etc.

It’s important to know how information is used. It’s important to understand how it affects us. Join this incredible conversation that I had with my brother Eric and my partner Ben as we go from the TikTok ban to governments, information, what is good and evil, and so much more.

The Nature of the Self in Relation to All

Samantha — Thu, 04 Dec 2025 18:23:09 GMT

This episode was recorded while spending time in nature with an oak leaf. I explore many ideas, one being who we exist for, why we exist, how we communicate, what things actually are and how we perceive it to be. It is a beautiful episode that begs us to ask the question of who we are doing things for.

The Episode Where I Get Lost

Samantha — Mon, 29 Sep 2025 12:00:00 GMT

Come on an adventure with me into the the unknown. I believe we need to get lost from time to time. If things are familiar all the time, we don't have a chance to see something different. Another way to be, or speak or live. Are we doing things that are familiar because we were taught to? Is the familiar who we really are? Who were we before conditioning? Could getting lost get us in touch with that?

Everything is in Everything Else

Samantha — Mon, 15 Sep 2025 12:00:00 GMT

In this episode I explore the concept of refraction, how we find everything in everything else, as well as the current state of our world and a possible way to "change" it, and how real change takes time.

We Don't Have Purpose! Now, We Can Live

Samantha — Mon, 03 Mar 2025 13:00:00 GMT

Purpose is a tricky concept. Purpose can rule our lives. What will I do if I don't live my purpose? Am I wasting time? Am I supposed to do something else?

What if we have no sole purpose? What if doing what makes us happy and living an authentic life is it? Here's a short impromptu dialogue with myself inspired by the Pixar movie 'Soul' and real life events.

The Infinite Ways to Grow

Samantha — Fri, 10 Feb 2023 14:47:07 GMT

This episode is inspired by my brother. The person who has been with me almost my whole life. Who is the closest thing to another me. He knows what I love, what makes me laugh, how I hurt, what my childhood was like. He was there. He was there through everything. And we share a bond that’s very unique. And somewhere along the line we stopped bonding. We found other people to grow with. We stopped growing with each other. Why does that happen? Why do we look elsewhere for love and growth? What if we could grow with everyone always? I didn’t have to choose between my partner and my brother who I want to grow with. We just all grow together in our own unique relational ways. And what can come of that growth? Who will you find through all these other relationships? That’s what this episode is about.

“Wisdom” Wednesdays - Loneliness

Samantha — Wed, 06 Jul 2022 13:13:20 GMT

This episode is inspired by a talk from J. Krishnamurti and real life events. Why do we feel alone? When something happens to us, and presents loneliness to us, can we accept that as it is instead of what we want it to be or what it “should” be? If someone makes me feel alone, and I say “well I wouldn’t feel alone if this happened”, I am not accepting what is actually present. I am not able to find the root of my loneliness. And then do something about it.

Friday Food for Thought - Healing

Samantha — Fri, 11 Mar 2022 15:31:18 GMT

What happens when you are cracked open? When you acknowledge all of the parts of yourself, the good and bad. When you delve deeper and deeper into yourself no matter what you find. I believe you can spend a lifetime doing this. And I believe the deeper you go, and the more open and loving and real and vulnerable you are, the more you can experience and love and see and enjoy. When we go deeper and heal the not so shiny stuff, we find gold. And there’s plenty to share. This is inspired by a lovely partner of mine who from the moment I met him has been nothing but a loving and open vessel.

Friday Food for Thought - Options

Samantha — Fri, 07 Jan 2022 15:02:51 GMT

Ain’t capitalism something? Companies produce waste and we’re responsible to recycle it. We also have so many options of the same thing! Which is weird. I just talk about things that shouldn’t be made for profit (medicine, healthcare, mail) and how bizarre they are. And maybe how things could be. I don’t know, I hope you enjoy regardless 🖤

Wisdom Wednesdays - Mastering

Samantha — Wed, 15 Dec 2021 14:20:36 GMT

This was a late night ramble about what it means to master something, and potentially a way to find out what your natural talents are. Or at least one of them. A few other random bits are sprinkled in (as usual). Enjoy ❤️

Friday Food for Thought - A New World

Samantha — Fri, 10 Dec 2021 14:08:43 GMT

In this episode I talk about how the way we live isn’t sustainable. Capitalism exists banking on the fact that the end of the world is coming, because it acts as if it is. So I talk about a different world and a different way of living. Join me as I ramble on my drive to work. Let me know what you think! Have a lovely day ❤️

Food for Thought Friday - A Different Perspective

Samantha — Fri, 03 Dec 2021 15:31:12 GMT

Hello! This is my longest solo ramble. I wish y’all were there to help me sort out thoughts and just figure stuff out. But I talk about a different way of living. More leisurely. Where we can actually enjoy being a human. You think it’s possible? Let me know. Thank you ❤️

Monday Morning Rambles - The Song of Life

Samantha — Mon, 15 Nov 2021 14:02:50 GMT

Hello, this is one of my favorite episodes. It’s about humanity. It’s about seeing the you in me and the rainforest and a different way of living. I hope you enjoy. As promised, the indigenous woman I mention is named Nemonte Nenquimo. You can find her on Instagram! Enjoy 🥺

Monday Morning Rambles - Love

Samantha — Mon, 08 Nov 2021 17:34:13 GMT

This episode features my dear friend Dylan. We just talk about love, friendship, letting down walls, not having to die or be alone, polyamory, and how you should probably buy a house with all your closest friends. ❤️ reach out to me on Instagram @cosmic.triggers with comments or questions.

Dinner with Frankie

Samantha — Mon, 11 Oct 2021 16:42:18 GMT

In this episode, a very sweet soul who I am fortunate enough to know talks about helping the homeless, fighting injustices, the BLM movement, gentrification, the environment and beautiful acts of kindness. My first hour long episode and it’s a really great one!

The Art of Digestion: More Than Just Food

Samantha — Wed, 24 Sep 2025 13:24:00 GMT

In this podcast episode, I explore the concept of digestion, not just in terms of food, but as a metaphor for processing information, experiences, and collective societal influences. I reflect on my personal experiences with digestion, both physically and mentally, and emphasize the importance of being mindful about what we consume—whether it's food, media, or social influences. The conversation delves into how our collective decisions shape our reality and the need for individual awareness in a distracted world.

Building Utopia: Rambles from a Music Festival

Samantha — Fri, 25 Jul 2025 22:00:56 GMT

This was recorded at Beardfest. Ben and I began to talk about systems, ecosystems, and the natural system that sustains life. What happens when the system is imbalanced? How do we accept that every system contains suffering? How can we create as little suffering as possible and become reconnected to our nature as human BEINGS?

Meditation and a Fishing Pole

Samantha — Mon, 18 Oct 2021 16:00:00 GMT

In this episode, my partner and I discuss meditation, what it does for me, the use of marijuana as a fertilizer for your meditation seeds, and we reference David Lynch’s analogy of fishing as finding little wisdom nuggets in your subconscious through meditation. If you have thoughts or comments feel free to message me on Instagram @cosmic.triggers :)

Monday Morning Rambles - Your Worth

Samantha — Mon, 12 Sep 2022 14:40:54 GMT

Hello friends. This is a ramble about finding your worth. Knowing that you are worth being seen and heard and shared and so is everyone else. We all have gifts that can be shared. This ramble is also about forgiveness, of the self and of others. I hope you can find yourself in it. ❤️

Wisdom Wednesdays - Connections

Samantha — Wed, 01 Dec 2021 12:42:00 GMT

This is a short bit about how everything is connected, and what happens when we seemingly sever connections between trees and each other. If anyone has answers, please reach out! Instagram: @cosmic.triggers

Monday Morning Rambles

Samantha — Mon, 01 Nov 2021 11:50:59 GMT

This episode is a twofer. Part 1 was recorded a few days ago, where I discuss the importance of stillness, our awareness to what’s around us and I guess rambles. Part two is a recap that consists of more informative rambles. This is just me talking, I really like this one. Enjoy!

On Self-Realization, Transformation, Responsibility, and Love

Samantha — Wed, 26 Mar 2025 12:00:00 GMT

How can we pack these topics into an hour and a half podcast?! We can't, and honestly, we didn't mean to even attempt to. This is what I call a download, if you will. I was inspired to speak, and thus, I spoke. The program where I record my podcast episodes from summed up this episode as follows: In this conversation, Samantha Marie explores the intricate relationship between capitalism, personal growth, and the divine. She discusses the implications of capitalism on our lives, and the concept of God as a part of everything. The dialogue delves into healing, the role of plant medicine, and the importance of cultural wisdom in understanding our existence. Samantha emphasizes the need for personal responsibility, the balance between pleasure and healing, and the interconnectedness of all life as we navigate our journey back to God.

Well, there you have it. That is some of it. I also discuss in this episode the importance of looking into our karmic and ancestral history to find where we need to focus on healing to become fuller, healed beings.

If you're interested in healing, join the Patreon where I will have weekly virtual groups. That's right, I'm bringing back The Journey to You. In this space, we will explore what is in the way of our divinity, our truth, and find and embody who we really are. Link to the patreon below!

Thanks for being here, thank you for finding me and helping me re-member. I love you. https://patreon.com/cosmictriggerswithsam?utm_medium=unknown&utm_source=join_link&utm_campaign=creatorshare_creator&utm_content=copyLink

Monday Morning Ramble - Our Roles in a Family (and Societal) System

Samantha — Mon, 11 Jul 2022 15:25:05 GMT

This is an important episode in my life. It is about identity death. How who you are and what you need to do or be can change. The roles that we’ve subconsciously been given don’t need to stay that way. We can be and do whatever we’d like. We can say no to things we’ve been made to believe we have to do. And when you do, the system you’ve been integrated into will crumble. Be it in your family or society. This episode is about libertarian. It’s about loving yourself and being a human and being able to show up for yourself and others in the way you want to, not the way you feel you need to.

My Mentor Kerrie

Samantha — Tue, 21 Dec 2021 13:48:28 GMT

This is meant to be a Monday morning ramble, because it is quite the ramble. However, it unexpectedly became a review of sorts, where I try to explain my mentorship program and what it has done for me, and how it might help you if you so choose to reach out to Kerrie. You will be in the best of hands. It’s like therapy but times a thousand. I have breakthroughs way more often, and instead of just leaving me with them to try and figure out myself, Kerrie helps integrate practices that help me go on with new information about myself. There is not hierarchy here. Kerrie helps me see and hear me, because deep down we all know how to heal ourselves. Sometimes we just need someone to show us how. Please check her out on Instagram @sacredwork.love

Making the Choice to Rest is Natural: A Winter Reminder

Samantha — Thu, 11 Dec 2025 22:43:57 GMT

I have not felt the desire to work, to profit, to grind, or to be a girl boss. I have felt the desire to sleep, dream, be warm, eat with great intention, sing, sleep, gather (but not too often), and mend. Seasons are natural. The sun is weaker, I am weaker so as to hear my heart and what she’s learned. This is a podcast episode about giving us permission to rest in a society that is concerned only with economic growth at an unnatural level. I speak about other teachings from plants as well. I love you. Thank you for being here.

Monday Morning Rambles - Self Love

Samantha — Mon, 20 Jun 2022 15:24:48 GMT

Don’t let the title fool you. I think self love is something talked about a lot but rarely understood. Heck, I don’t really know what it means. But I’m starting to get glimpses of it, I think. I think we’re taught to give ourselves entirely to another. That is love. But then why does love and relationships always seem to fall short? Why are we left disappointed and unhappy? I think we rely too much on others to love us. I think the love we give to others and want in return cannot be given back by another, but from you. That is what this episode is about.

“Wisdom” Wednesdays - Our Inner Child - Part II

Samantha — Wed, 25 May 2022 12:43:24 GMT

Todays episode is a continuation of our inner child part I. This will probably be a series because I’m realizing there is a lot of work to do with our little child inside. This is just some of my own experiences with little Sam and how I’m learning to heal her.

Monday Morning Rambles - Society

Samantha — Mon, 24 Jan 2022 16:25:06 GMT

This one is a ramble, we definitely go all over the place. Featuring my dear friend Emily, we talk about society, why we’re separate, how we’d like things to be, why technological advancements are good and bad, food, love, kindness and the security dilemma. This is a great one. Please reach out to me on Instagram @cosmic.triggers if you have anything you’d like to say!

Trauma - The Abused and the Abuser in All of Us

Samantha — Thu, 09 Jun 2022 12:38:21 GMT

This episode is vulnerable. Probably the most vulnerable I’ve been yet. I talk about my sexual trauma. How society only wants to look at the “good” or positive things and ignore the bad. And what can happen when we ignore what is in all of us. Thich Nhat Hanh talks about interbeing. How there can’t be right without left, up without down. The same is true for joy and suffering. Happiness and sadness. Beauty and ugliness. We have everything inside of us. We aren’t all joy and beauty and sunshine. We have darkness. And if we never discuss it and suppress it, it comes out in harmful ways.

Alone Time = Sadness (Maybe)

Samantha — Tue, 21 Sep 2021 12:12:08 GMT

After spending an hour or two with my self, I thought of people who maybe don’t live with others. Who when they’re done doing what they need to for themselves, have no one to create with. Create meaning exchanging experiences or the self. We create just by being. And I don’t think we always have to create alone. Maybe we were supposed to be supported by others more often. Maybe if we had community, we wouldn’t suffer from certain mental illnesses. Just a quick discussion I had with my partner who I’m very glad was in the next room ❤️

Where Is It All Going & What Is It All For

Samantha — Wed, 18 Dec 2024 19:36:58 GMT

Hello my friends! We're back!

This episode is a return to the heart of what this podcast was always about; having fun, exploring questions, getting lost, finding answers, and getting more lost. I was playing the guitar and wanted to record myself so that when I am in the future I can look back and say "see! You were there and now you're here!" But where is there, and was I always going to end up there and then eventually end up here? Wait, where did it all start? Was I always going to become Samantha? Will I keep becoming? Who's collecting this data called Samantha and you, the listener? Where is all of this data going? These are some of the questions I ask, along with much more. Enjoy the ride. Things tend to lean towards disorder so, remember that while you're watching this. I love you.

If you'd like to reach out about anything I discussed in this episode, you can email me at sam.redonda@gmail.com, or message me on instagram @samantha.thebrave.

Music: Waves by Shebad

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“Social” Media and Its Impact on the Self: A Return to “Wisdom” Wednesdays

Samantha — Wed, 08 Oct 2025 13:41:46 GMT

I have been off of social media for a whopping two whole days, and it’s as if a veil has been lifted. If we think of what social media is, it is to participate in social networking. That means we are participating in a networking that does not truly exist in real time, but the past or someone else’s current present, but not necessarily our own present. It is designed by people who study how the human mind works to keep you on it for as long as possible, and it is a means of consumption; constant consumption. Where is the room to digest if we are all consuming? Where is the room to ask yourself in a sea of other who you are and how you feel? I ask these questions and more in this short 16 minute episode.

There Is No Enemy - A Story of Compassion & The Human Conditioning

Samantha — Thu, 11 Sep 2025 17:03:29 GMT

Is it ever right to hate? Is hatred ever justified? Why do we hate someone for being hateful? It seems as though our hatred is a means of survival, and also denial. We hate hateful people, denying the hatred that exists in us. We point fingers to find others to blame so that we are safe and viewed as good. We crucify and are crucified. We don't want this to be the way it is for us, but create it for others. So what needs to change? How can we hold one another with curiosity and compassion? How can we hold the favorable and unfavorable that exists in all of us?

Opening song: The Duration by Mimicking Birds

Closing song: Growth/Decay by Mimicking Birds

“Wisdom” Wednesday - Fear

Samantha — Wed, 23 Mar 2022 13:16:41 GMT

Thich Nhat Hanh said “the only way to ease our fear and be truly happy is to acknowledge our fear and look deeply at its source. Instead of trying to escape from our fear, we can invite it up to our awareness and look at it clearly and deeply.” This episode is just about that, inspired by my partner who constantly acknowledges his fear and faces it when it comes, instead of ignoring it or abandoning it. What if fear is just a newborn baby who needs someone to take care of it and love it and see it’s source. I hope you find something in this, I certainly did while making it. I’m starting to see fear as a friend, or just someone who needs to be loved in order to transform.

Do We Have Choice?

Samantha — Mon, 27 Jan 2025 12:00:00 GMT

Hello friends!

This podcast episode begins with a discussion around a new EP that Ethel Cain released titled 'Perverts.' The album is very suggestive and spurred a lot of emotions in us. In this episode, we explore sexuality, culture, vulnerability, choice, being your real self versus the self that serves a function, what we do for survival, and what the world would be like if we acted from love and choice rather than survival and persuasion.

Check out Ethel Cain's EP Perverts anywhere you can stream music! Here's a link: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_k-wb9I5xCHIVQyTmVL7ipI6_4bEUFABmE

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Wisdom Wednesdays - Comfort

Samantha — Wed, 10 Nov 2021 14:30:24 GMT

This episode is short and sweet, with the ultimate message that it’s okay to love you and to express that love. That if people are trying to dim that love, it’s because they don’t have it for themselves. We aren’t taught to love ourselves so outwardly, but if you do, bring others up with you. That is all. Enjoy ❤️

Friday Food for Thought - 1

Samantha — Fri, 05 Nov 2021 12:47:53 GMT

This first Food for Thought features my lovely partner Christian. We discuss how nudity being sexualized may be the reason it is so hard for us to connect on a deeper level. And if we were able to just see each other in a different light, all those judgements and walls would come down and we could just be ourselves fully. Reach out to me with any thoughts on Instagram! @cosmic.triggers

On Being Open

Samantha — Tue, 28 Sep 2021 16:00:00 GMT

I recorded this after having a moment of connection with another person. She showed me a side to myself I don’t really see often, and without us both being vulnerable I might not have ever seen it. This is short and sweet. All I’m trying to say is be open and honest to yourself and others. Let people in (scary, I know). Use your judgement, but not too much. You’ll learn so much about yourself and the people around you.

What Happens When it All Goes Away

Samantha — Thu, 03 Nov 2022 13:10:19 GMT

My partner Ben is trying to navigate life not based on fear. So since February, he hasn’t worked. He’s lived off of his savings. Because he doesn’t want to do anything just because someone tells him to. That’s our life right? From childhood we’ve been doing things we were told we had to do. You have to go to school, get a job, vote for this person, watch this, wear this, look like this. We have layers and layers of things we’re supposed to do and be. So Ben has been challenging that, I have in my own ways, but last night I was truly inspired by my partner. His desire to live freely. To not have attachments. And it’s been an incredible thing to witness. What would we be without all these ideas of who we are and what we need and what we have? If we tried things differently. If we revealed who we are underneath years and lifetimes of conditioning.

Monday Morning Rambles - The Depths of Our Pain = The Depths of Our Joy

Samantha — Mon, 07 Nov 2022 17:21:41 GMT

Sounds silly right? But that’s been my experience. The more I hold space for my pain, the more I can hold capacity for joy. Borders are breaking down within me. I hold the capacity to love and feel more. Not only for myself but for others. And maybe that’s what we need. To feel our pain. And to do it together. Because we all have it. Pain is universal. And if I know that, I can love you no matter what. Because you feel what I feel. And why would I want to add more pain to your load? To my own. I don’t. So this episode is about that. I hope you enjoy it.

Friday Food for Thought - All Play and No Work

Samantha — Fri, 28 Oct 2022 15:06:17 GMT

I took two weeks off of work for my mental health, and it has been the most eye opening experience of my life. This episode I talk about the conditioning of needing to “work”. How this idea has taken us away from ourselves, our planet, each other. For the past two weeks I have learned so much about myself, why I’m here, how I want to show up for myself and others. How work is just a waste of our lives. We were here to experience, maybe work is one of those experiences. Work for the community, to feed ourselves and each other, to give our gifts. To be ourselves and live our lives with passion. Maybe that’s work. Not giving 40 plus hours a week doing something you’re pretty much forced to do. I don’t know anything, but I’m glad you’re here to listen to me anyway.

Monday Morning Rambles - The Truth is Always There with special guest Ben

Samantha — Mon, 29 Aug 2022 14:14:53 GMT

This is the first episode featuring my partner Ben. It’s wonderful. It’s full of wisdom and insight about fear, realizing what thoughts are real or not, how everyone is worth of forgiveness. We discuss schizophrenia, narcissism and how anyone can transform and grow. And how when you’re not afraid of things, those things are able to show up in your conscious in order to learn more about yourself. I hope you enjoy this.

To Live Without Fear

Samantha — Mon, 12 Sep 2022 15:37:27 GMT

Two episodes in a day? Yup. This one is in response to the one prior to this. It’s about how we should enjoy ourselves and live to our fullest potential, regardless of fear. Regardless of judgement. Because if we live in fear, we limit our experiences. I’m alive once, for all I know. I am of the nature to die. I am of the nature to get old. So why not enjoy my body and my abilities and try to access my full potential? This is short and sweet and a good one. I hope you enjoy.

A Ramble of Cosmic Triggers

Samantha — Wed, 23 Nov 2022 21:09:51 GMT

Hello friends. This episode is similar to my earlier ones. It is a ramble of cosmic proportions. When I was little, like 5-7, my mom said I would talk on a fake phone for HOURS. To no one other than myself. And that’s what I felt making this episode. The energy of that little girl who has so many thoughts and just wants to share them. So maybe someone might respond back. So here’s an unedited raw episode of my thoughts. I share them for me. Because maybe I’m not alone in my thoughts. So if you feel inspired to answer, my Instagram is cosmic.triggers. Message me please! I love you. ❤️

“Wisdom” Wednesday - The Authentic Self

Samantha — Wed, 21 Sep 2022 16:26:37 GMT

This episode is a return to my roots on this podcast. Using cannabis, I try to articulate information on why we might feel anxious when using cannabis, what it means to actually be yourself, family systems theory and at the end there’s a little breathing exercise I added on a whim. It’s a good episode full of rambles and rants and love. I hope you enjoy. ❤️

“Wisdom” Wednesday - Anger: Part I

Samantha — Wed, 27 Jul 2022 14:26:04 GMT

This episode is the first of many. Anger is something I’m very familiar with and not at all familiar with at the same time. What I say here is not definite, just a matter of perspective from where I am in my life right now. I think anger is a protector. I think it also covers up some emotions we may struggle to feel or let out. I think we are taught that some emotions are more favorable than others, so we don’t express them. Especially in a healthy way. I think all feelings are right and true, and if you have one, you have the right to acknowledge it and express it mindfully. I think anger can be held by ourselves and our loved ones. I think there is truth in it. And I believe if we ignore it, that is when we hurt ourselves and others unintentionally. I needed to share a lot of what happened to me in order to convey how I got to this thought process. I hope you can find yourself in what I say. If not, thanks for listening anyway. I love you.

A Reminder

Samantha — Thu, 18 Aug 2022 19:43:52 GMT

Todays episode is one of the most important and beautiful episodes I’ve recorded. My brother and I have a deep and long conversation about what it is to be human. What our responsibility is as a human. Our divinity, what we are behind our flesh. We discuss hermeticism and ancient knowledge. We discuss the world we live in, how if we change internally the outside can change. If we come from a place of love and not the mind (which is ego) the world can look different. If you are looking for a reminder of who you are, or something to spark the ember in your heart, I highly recommend this episode. We did not plan this, we were simply discussing a book and took a deep dive into this incredible and mysterious experience called life. The quality of the recording is similar to my earlier episodes. It might feel like you’re sitting in my room with us, there is the sound of a living house in the background. But I promise it’s worth the listen. I hope you enjoy this episode. I have listened to it many times and am so inspired by my brothers words and our conversation.

The Abundance of Love and Pain in All of Us

Samantha — Tue, 10 Jan 2023 15:20:36 GMT

This episode is about the fear to be all that we are. To love as much as we can. To let people in and see us through good and bad. Why are we afraid of this? Why are we afraid to love? To be loved? And how can we work together to be more free in love. And what I mean by that is, to show up as ourselves no matter what. To put our walls down and be the mess of a human that we are. The beauty and the ugly. The good and the bad. We are all of it. And we can hold all of it. We are capable of so much love. We have an abundance of it. There is love enough. It doesn’t run out. And while there’s an abundance of love, there is also an abundance of pain. And the more we can hold it and go through it, the more love we can hold and go through. That’s what this episode is about. I love you.

Monday Morning Rambles - Information

Samantha — Mon, 13 Dec 2021 14:17:29 GMT

This episode is about information. Where certain ideas came from, how information is spread today and whether it’s good or not. This will have a second part because it ends with a new line of questions. I hope it gives you something to think about, and if so, please share what it is!

Joy - Our Natural State of Being and Birthright

Samantha — Sun, 08 Oct 2023 22:00:45 GMT

As Organic Abundance would say, joy is our birthright. For the longest time I did not know what this meant. I just thought I could experience moments of joy. I did not know it was a state of being. But as I've begun to tap into my own joy, I'm realizing that it is the most natural state of being, along with love. Unfortunately, joy goes against the giant system that is in place to make sure we function according to it and its needs. If you're not familiar with family systems theory, I will talk about it in this episode. How on a macro and micro level, we are all functioning according to a system that works when we are not in our joy. In this episode, I'll talk about what systems look like, and how we can step out of these roles that were given to us so we can step into our joy and come from the place we were meant to. We all want the freedom to live in our joy, it is our birthright.

On Being Open - Part II

Samantha — Tue, 08 Feb 2022 13:01:55 GMT

This episode is about being open and vulnerable. And how when you do that, sometimes you find people who can hold you for all that you are, both good and bad. They can accept and understand all your parts. And because of that, you get healed a little. Imagine if we did that with more than just our primary partners? Where we allowed the right people to hold us and see us, what we could become. What we could bring out in each other. That’s what this episode is about. I hope you enjoy it.

On Journaling and Reflecting

Samantha — Tue, 01 Mar 2022 13:44:13 GMT

All those spiritual people on Instagram got to me when they talk about how they journal everyday. I think every day might be overwhelming, but if we reflected on our day to day feelings and emotions, we’d probably process and release a lot of shtuff. And then we won’t be so uptight, and we’d probably have a better understanding of ourselves and the world around us. But what do I know.

“Wisdom” Wednesday - Nursing the Beloved

Samantha — Wed, 19 Jan 2022 13:27:15 GMT

Hello to you. Todays episode was recorded after I did a guided meditation to nurse the beloved (who’s the beloved?) and discover what your attachment style might be. It was enlightening to say the least. Just a quick ramble about how I discovered how I need and want to love myself and be loved by others. Important stuff ya know? Hope you enjoy 🖤

Relationships

Samantha — Tue, 11 Jan 2022 13:31:02 GMT

This is kind of about relationship to self and other. Realizing what your relationship to relationships were at a younger age, and how you can make your adult ones more healthy and fruitful! At least for me. Maybe you’ll resonate. This one’s a little vulnerable, but I appreciate you hearing me out.

Monday Morning Rambles - Consciousness and a Can of Soup

Samantha — Mon, 03 Jan 2022 17:55:35 GMT

I ponder to what extent consciousness exists over a can of soup. And if we see things as having consciousness, would that change how we treat them/consume them/spend time with them?

“Wisdom” Wednesdays - ENM

Samantha — Wed, 29 Dec 2021 13:34:26 GMT

A quick bit about why it’s cool to be open to depth within your relationships and to find as much fulfilling and worthwhile connection as you can. That is all.

Monday Morning Ramble - True Rambles

Samantha — Mon, 29 Nov 2021 15:03:08 GMT

LISTEN TO THIS ONE. It’s my favorite. They’re all my favorite. But this is truly a ramble. And I encourage you to please respond and reach out with thoughts that you have. That is all. Enjoy your day, your life and everything you do.

Indigenous Peoples Day

Samantha — Thu, 25 Nov 2021 14:13:55 GMT

This morning I was inspired to make an episode about what we know about thanksgiving. How we can change its meaning to not be about celebrating genocide. Maybe Americans love thanksgiving because it is a time to come together and (hopefully) have a day off of work, but it’s meaning needs to change. I’m so glad we made this episode and I hope you give it a listen. Happy Indigenous Peoples day. Let us mourn those who were lost through mass genocide and learn how we can be better allies.

Pilot

Samantha — Mon, 13 Sep 2021 12:41:40 GMT

Hello friends! This is the first episode, just to kind of explain what might be happening here. Although truly, I don't know what's happening here. How can I explain with words?! Anyway, I hope you stick around for the episodes to come. Again, they are randomly recorded, so the sound quality is a bit ~personal~ but I hope that only makes you want to stay a bit more. I wish you the very best and thank you for being a part of this whole.

The Nature of the Universe with Eric

Samantha — Tue, 28 Mar 2023 13:09:46 GMT

This is a beautiful episode filled with wonder and exploration of thought. My brother took a dose of psilocybin and spent time with me. This was our conversation. We discuss the nature of the universe, what it is to be a human. The wonder of the world versus reason. It’s a wonderful episode. I hope you enjoy it.

Plant Medicine and a New World with Jason Grechanik

Samantha — Thu, 10 Oct 2024 16:23:08 GMT

Hello friends! Welcome back to Cosmic Triggers with Sam. Today I had a guest, a very special guest. Jason Grechanik has been one of the fascilitators for the past two tobacco dietas I have attended. Jason is a man who walks with much grace and integrity and I feel honored to have been held in such sacred space in the dieta setting and to also have him share his worldview on todays episode.

Jason has had a deep interest in plants as medicine for many years. After studying various modalities, he has lived, studied, and worked in the Amazon for the past decade. He runs plant medicine dietas there and throughout the world as I mentioned and has facilitated for many years ayahuasca workshops at the Temple of the Way of Light. He also started a podcast called The Universe Within podcast. Jason is also an eagle scout.. In his free time, he enjoys practicing Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu (he is a brown belt), spending time in nature, riding his motorcycle and time at home. Please enjoy this medicine in the form of a podcast. I love you.

Find more information about Jason here:

nicotianarustica.org

https://jasongrechanik.com/podcast

Dreams and the Subconscious

Samantha — Sat, 23 Sep 2023 18:14:57 GMT

After working with plants that help us tap into our subconscious and our dreams, I have been able to receive the information my dreams are trying to tell me. Dreams work on the subconscious level, providing us with information that is not on the surface. Our dreams help us create. They show us where we need to put our attention towards, they show us other lives and information from other places that are relevant to this time, to where we are in our lives. This episode is about dreams and the information they've given me, and how to be open to receiving and seeing them in new ways.

Friday Food for Thought - Mindfulness

Samantha — Fri, 01 Apr 2022 13:20:04 GMT

After a little more than a week of integrating a bell into my life that goes off every 15 minutes to remind me to breathe, I have some updates. I feel calm. I’m happy almost always. I smile a lot. I see subtlety’s in things I did not see before. I’m quiet. My mind is quiet. I don’t respond to people or things right away, but first take a breathe to assess how I’m feeling and a better way to answer. It feels like the world is a wonder, that I am a wonder. If you have the time, I suggest watching this video. It talks about a lot of things, but it’s helped me tremendously. https://youtu.be/fOI_UlAm-LU

Monday Morning Rambles - Bathtub Ramble

Samantha — Tue, 12 Apr 2022 14:45:47 GMT

I haven’t used marijuana in a while. But I did this day and then took a bath. And it was an experience, let me tell you. Your body is incredible. Laying in water is incredible. The fact that water comes out of a faucet is incredible. There are little joys and wonders in everything. That’s not even what this podcast episode is about. It’s just a ramble. I hope it’s somewhat coherent. Regardless, thank you for being here.

Monday Morning Ramble - Love, God, and The Self

Samantha — Thu, 01 Sep 2022 15:09:54 GMT

This is a ramble that starts with what an interaction with a child taught me. That we are all born to love. We aren’t afraid of each other. We aren’t afraid to hug and kiss a stranger. We all want to love and be loved unconditionally. And why when we grow up that goes away. And how love is repressed in our society. How our idea of what god is and how it judges and punishes might influence why we judge and punish ourselves and each other. 89% of people believe in a higher power, and what they believe that higher power is determines how they treat themselves and each other. So what if god was loving? If god didn’t judge and want anything from you. And lastly, what are you? Are you your job? Are you the voice in your head that judges everything? Or the thing behind that that just observes? I hope you enjoy todays ramble. And I’d love to hear your thoughts on it.

Reflections of the Full Moon & Lunar Eclipse in Virgo

Samantha — Fri, 14 Mar 2025 00:14:00 GMT

Oh boy is this episode a ride! Seriously. It’s mercury retrograde (almost) and this video is the proof in the pudding. I bopped around in recordings, had to re-record, and had strange cutoffs. I apologize. Please bare with me and this video! We talk astrology for people who don't really know astrology. I promise I am one of those people. I kinda just go with what I'm feeling and it's always spot on to what my astrology peeps saying is happening!

We talk about how the people we need to "release" and "let go of" are the people who live inside us who hold us back, who are old versions of us, and how staying with and in relations allows us to transform!

Please give this one a listen. There is so much information given to me by the moon. :P

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Our Moral Compass to Live and Love

Samantha — Wed, 21 Dec 2022 15:27:05 GMT

This episode features my partner Ben. It’s an excellent episode. I don’t want to spoil it, but it’s based on a realization we had that nothing does matter, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t matter. Our beings are programmed to live. If we want to jump off a bridge or a building, fear comes in and says no, you’re supposed to be here. We talk about how there is pleasant and unpleasant feelings. If nothing mattered, you could just hurt people and kill without feeling anything. But it doesn’t feel good to hurt. But it does feel good to love and be loved, to hold your partners hand, to kiss someone. To help someone. So it seems like there is a compass in us to do good and to live. We’re supposed to be here. I love this episode. I hope you find what you need in it. We love you.

“Wisdom” Wednesdays - Bowen Family Systems Theory

Samantha — Wed, 05 Oct 2022 13:28:43 GMT

Hello friends. This episode is vulnerable. I discuss how Bowen family systems theory, which looks at how trauma is passed around in generations and in the family’s, looks in my family. And maybe looks in yours. And how when we can take responsibility for our role in our lives and in our family’s, which transmits to our relationships outside of our family’s, we can change for the better. We can have a healthy relationship with ourselves, our families, and everyone else around us. This is a great episode, I hope you give it a listen. I love you. ❤️ here is a link to Bowen Family systems theory article https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/1988/09/chronic-anxiety-and-defining-a-self/668356/

Being Conscious in Love & Life

Samantha — Fri, 16 Dec 2022 15:59:19 GMT

I don’t know how to talk about things unless it’s from my own experience. So in this episode I talk about love, and what I thought it was and how I experienced it and how my idea of it has changed over time. And how we can be conscious in all of our life. In our relationships with ourselves, our partners, our friends, strangers. We are all conditioned from childhood and society. We react instead of respond. And it is mostly unconscious. Until we become conscious of it. If you ever feel like you’re the victim, why is that? Did you need to defend yourself from getting hurt when you were younger and now that’s translated into your adult life? Why do we do the things we do? And can we change them to have healthier relationships with ourselves and each other. Sure. But it takes work. So that’s what this episode is about. I love you. And as usual, please let me know what this episode brings up for you.

Thursday (Happy) Thoughts - First There is a Mountain

Samantha — Thu, 30 Jun 2022 18:30:01 GMT

This is a new segment requested by my friend and listener John. I will talk about things that make me happy. No more than 10 minutes in length. This is the ASMR of podcasts. It is recorded in a field with the sound of birds and trees blowing in the wind. Recommended to listen before bed or when you’d just like to wind down or relax some. Hope it’s as nice for you to listen as it was for me to make this!

Life is a Series of Little Deaths

Samantha — Sun, 18 Feb 2024 17:12:13 GMT

This episode is about the little deaths that can happen on a day to day, moment to moment basis. If we surrender to it. Death is beautiful, yet painful. Death is an ending of ways that were harmful to allow new and better ones to exist. It is letting go of stories of separation in order to write new ones that encourage togetherness. Death is available every day. This is an episode where I talk about my own little deaths and how they helped me for the better.

Wisdom Wednesdays - Compassion

Samantha — Wed, 17 Nov 2021 12:39:46 GMT

One of my favorites. This was a quick ramble in the car on the way to see Marc Rebillet. I cry at the end, so if you like crying, you might like this one. We talk about why it’s important to have compassion for everyone, amongst other things. I hope you enjoy hearing it as much as I did making it.

“Wisdom” Wednesday Ramble - Healing our Ancestors

Samantha — Fri, 05 Aug 2022 14:48:09 GMT

This episode is a ramble about the lives our ancestors lived. The lives they didn’t get to live. And how that has effected us and the way we live. The way society functions. The way we feel about ourselves and each other. How we pass down the past to our children, how we live in the past. And many times, a past that is not ours. We inherit the gifts and goodness of our ancestors. But we also inherit their pain and fears and anger. Can we acknowledge and accept them and us in our entirety? So that we can decide if we want to continue those patterns or not? Can we acknowledge that maybe what my ancestors have done and experienced, yours might have also? That we’re more similar than we think? So we can sympathize and love and accept each other more. And in turn love and accept ourselves more. We can become who we are, and not who we were taught to be.

Monday Morning Rambles - Love and Understanding

Samantha — Mon, 08 Aug 2022 15:02:29 GMT

A quick ten minute episode on what love might be. Maybe it comes with understanding. We can love anyone if we understand them. And if that don’t make you happy I don’t know what will.

Reflections - One Year Anniversary Episode

Samantha — Fri, 09 Sep 2022 13:29:57 GMT

Anchor just informed me that one year ago today I published my first podcast episode. It’s so funny how the universe works. I’ve unconsciously spent that past few days listening to old episodes, comparing them to the ones I’ve been putting out lately, and seeing where and who I was to where and who I am now. This episode might resonate with you. It might not. But it’s the one year anniversary of the first consistent thing I’ve ever done. I’m proud of it. It’s me. I love it and her and you for being here. Thanks for growing with me. Cheers.

“Wisdom” Wednesday - The Mind vs. The Heart and other rambles

Samantha — Wed, 28 Sep 2022 18:05:31 GMT

This is about love. Coming from a place of the heart rather than the mind. It’s about how the mind works more in an animal survival way and the heart comes from a human perspective. It’s there to help and heal. I talk about trauma (as usual) and how unhealed children basically run the world. And how they just need some love and someone to listen to them. I talk about the gift of this life and this planet and this experience. Thanks for being here with me.

Death As Surrender to Who You Really Are

Samantha — Fri, 20 Feb 2026 18:07:06 GMT

What is death? It is not a permanent removal or extermination of something. Look at a pebble. Does it ever disappear? Or get smaller and larger and transform into more or less of itself. Everything that has ever been will continue to exist, but it will also transform. So what does death look like for us? It looks like reprieve from who you thought you had to be. It looks like reprieve from living a false life. Death is reprieve from who you are not. Death is not your end, but your transformation. That’s what this episode is about.

An Asteroid of Love

Samantha — Thu, 27 Apr 2023 12:32:12 GMT

This episode is brought to you by a micro dose of psilocybin and my partner Ben. After having a fear filled day of rock climbing, he decided to dive into his fear with a micro dose and discovered that he and all of us are asteroids of love, except we don’t act like it. He point out society and how strict and good we are at keeping real love at bay, and how if we all remembered who we are, the world would change. This is one of my favorite conversations. We are in a restaurant, so you will hear background noise. I call it ambiance. I hope you enjoy. ✨

Waking Up to Love

Samantha — Mon, 08 Apr 2024 15:01:01 GMT

On the day of the solar eclipse, I received a few wake up calls and reminders and I felt called to share them here. The world is in a state of transformation because we are transforming. We are remembering what it is to be human and why we are here. We are remembering that we are all meant for love and joy, and we’re starting to see what prevents us from living in this place with one another.

Cosmic Trigger Patreon Community

Samantha — Fri, 22 Jul 2022 16:07:32 GMT

Hello friends! This podcast began as a way for me to simply talk about what was on my mind, to myself mostly. And whoever would listen. Surprisingly, many people did listen. And this podcast has transformed from simple (but vibrant) rants to now sharing my healing journey, discussing how I work with my inner child, and noticing what changes around me as I begin to change at my core. I believe we are all feeling this cosmic shift; it is not just me. And so many of you have reached out to me sharing your own healing journeys. I want to offer more in that direction.

By becoming a patron, you will help me continue to live in a capitalist society (for now). Hopefully, with your contribution, I can buy a microphone. And maybe one day, a van. So we can take this podcast on the road. Or buy a plot of land where we can create a better world. I don't know. I really don't. But I want to share my time with you. I want to create real relationships, starting here but not ending here. So one day you don't have to give me money to live in order to speak to me. I love you. I want to know you and hold you and be there for you. The same way I want to be held and loved and heard. We all want the same things. This is just a place to start. Thank you. Seriously. I've never loved anything more than creating this and finding all of you.

Love,
Sam

“Wisdom” Wednesdays - The Naked Body & Mind

Samantha — Wed, 20 Jul 2022 14:50:16 GMT

Todays episode is about nudity. Literally and figuratively. How we are born into this world nude. We come as we are. No labels, no judgement, no shame, no embarrassment. We love ourselves and one another. We are open and vulnerable. And somewhere along the line we are told to cover up. That your body is inappropriate. The vulnerability and openness in you is inappropriate. Keep your secrets to yourself. And so we cover our bodies. We cover our minds. We only talk about certain things. We only share the mundane. We don’t share our depth. What we are underneath labels and clothes. And because of this we are also exploited. We are shamed. We don’t love ourselves and each other. This episode is about taking it off. Taking down your walls and letting people see you. So they can be reminded of who they are without shame, but with love.

Social Media and the Human Connection

Samantha — Tue, 10 May 2022 16:02:14 GMT

This episode is about connection. What is real connection? We think we have it because we can reach each other in an instance. But what does that take away from us? What do we lose? I think we lose warmth and love and true connection. Looking into a real humans eyes. Sitting with someone. Holding them. Feeling their warmth and love and pain. We lose this when we rely on social media. This is another very important episode. I hope it finds you well.

Listen to This if You Want Sweet Reminders of Love and Gratitude

Samantha — Thu, 25 Jan 2024 19:20:01 GMT

This is a love letter. It’s the full moon in Leo and we’re feeling all the feels of love. we’re remembering where we came from, how far we’ve come. We’re living in gratitude for who we are and this life and the great mystery. So instead of just writing a journal entry to myself, I decided to share this love letter with you. Because we are mirrors for each other. And because I love you too. As in I love who you are, no matter what. I hope you find pieces of you in this letter.