<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?><rss xmlns:dc="http://purl.org/dc/elements/1.1/" xmlns:content="http://purl.org/rss/1.0/modules/content/" xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" version="2.0" xmlns:itunes="http://www.itunes.com/dtds/podcast-1.0.dtd" xmlns:psc="http://podlove.org/simple-chapters" xmlns:podcast="https://podcastindex.org/namespace/1.0"><channel><title><![CDATA[Built from the Mess]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p><b>Built From the Mess</b> isn’t a success story. It’s the part before that.</p><p>This is a solo, honest podcast about growing up in chaos and learning how to build a stable life anyway. Raised in Colorado oilfield camps, navigating abandonment, addiction, survival mode, and the long road out — these episodes aren’t polished or motivational. They’re real.</p><p>Each week is one story, one theme, and one truth pulled straight from lived experience. The kind of stuff people don’t usually say out loud. The kind of stuff a lot of people carry quietly.</p><p>If you grew up in a messy home, had to grow up too fast, or are trying to build something solid after everything fell apart — this is for you.</p><p>No experts. No pretending.<br />Just what it looks like to build a life from the mess.</p>]]></description><link>https://riverside.com</link><generator>Riverside.fm (https://riverside.com)</generator><lastBuildDate>Thu, 28 May 2026 15:38:23 GMT</lastBuildDate><atom:link href="https://api.riverside.com/hosting/aZedVdT3.rss" rel="self" type="application/rss+xml"/><author><![CDATA[Nikki]]></author><pubDate>Sat, 07 Feb 2026 16:43:45 GMT</pubDate><copyright><![CDATA[2026 Nikki]]></copyright><language><![CDATA[en]]></language><ttl>60</ttl><category><![CDATA[Society & Culture]]></category><category><![CDATA[Mental Health]]></category><itunes:author>Nikki</itunes:author><itunes:summary>&lt;p&gt;&lt;b&gt;Built From the Mess&lt;/b&gt; isn’t a success story. It’s the part before that.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;This is a solo, honest podcast about growing up in chaos and learning how to build a stable life anyway. Raised in Colorado oilfield camps, navigating abandonment, addiction, survival mode, and the long road out — these episodes aren’t polished or motivational. They’re real.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Each week is one story, one theme, and one truth pulled straight from lived experience. The kind of stuff people don’t usually say out loud. The kind of stuff a lot of people carry quietly.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;If you grew up in a messy home, had to grow up too fast, or are trying to build something solid after everything fell apart — this is for you.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;No experts. No pretending.&lt;br /&gt;Just what it looks like to build a life from the mess.&lt;/p&gt;</itunes:summary><itunes:type>episodic</itunes:type><itunes:owner><itunes:name>Nikki</itunes:name><itunes:email>kylerobinson1984@gmail.com</itunes:email></itunes:owner><itunes:explicit>yes</itunes:explicit><itunes:category text="Society &amp; Culture"/><itunes:category text="Health &amp; Fitness"><itunes:category text="Mental Health"/></itunes:category><itunes:image href="https://hosting-media.riverside.com/media/podcasts/0dbb1c06-188e-4963-89a5-9814814b2cee/logos/4fa4e2ca-ff32-44e6-b150-1fb735f1539b.png"/><item><title><![CDATA[Episode 5- The Reality of Co-Parenting: Teenagers, Schedules, and the Hard Stuff]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p>Co-parenting isn’t always the picture-perfect version people talk about online. In this episode of Built From the Mess, I get real about the complicated side of raising teenagers in a blended family. From juggling work schedules and coordinating households to navigating the emotional side of parenting with an ex, this conversation dives into the challenges that come with trying to do what’s best for the kids. It’s honest, relatable, and a reminder that sometimes co-parenting is messy—but it’s still worth showing up for.</p>]]></description><guid isPermaLink="false">91a6ffbc-169c-4c3e-9223-16e8061da965</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Nikki]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 06 Mar 2026 01:53:37 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.riverside.com/hosting-analytics/media/ce1702af6cfd6e43160d78754aae6f9c4d6dfbcc2e93790ce8def6b04c18bf79/eyJlcGlzb2RlSWQiOiI5MWE2ZmZiYy0xNjljLTRjM2UtOTIyMy0xNmU4MDYxZGE5NjUiLCJwb2RjYXN0SWQiOiIwZGJiMWMwNi0xODhlLTQ5NjMtODlhNS05ODE0ODE0YjJjZWUiLCJhY2NvdW50SWQiOiI2OTg2NDJmZGU5NTFkNTA2OGUwMTEwOWQiLCJwYXRoIjoibWVkaWEvY2xpcHMvNjlhYTMxYjA3ODUwNzA2ZTNjYzAxZTFjL2t5bGUtcm9iaW5zb25zLXN0dWRpby1wQkdoUC1jb21wb3Nlci0yMDI2LTMtNl9fMi00NS0yMC5tcDMifQ==.mp3" length="27543449" type="audio/mpeg"/><podcast:transcript url="https://hosting-media.riverside.com/media/podcasts/0dbb1c06-188e-4963-89a5-9814814b2cee/episodes/91a6ffbc-169c-4c3e-9223-16e8061da965/transcripts.txt" type="text/plain"/><itunes:summary>&lt;p&gt;Co-parenting isn’t always the picture-perfect version people talk about online. In this episode of Built From the Mess, I get real about the complicated side of raising teenagers in a blended family. From juggling work schedules and coordinating households to navigating the emotional side of parenting with an ex, this conversation dives into the challenges that come with trying to do what’s best for the kids. It’s honest, relatable, and a reminder that sometimes co-parenting is messy—but it’s still worth showing up for.&lt;/p&gt;</itunes:summary><itunes:explicit>no</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>00:19:08</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://hosting-media.riverside.com/media/podcasts/0dbb1c06-188e-4963-89a5-9814814b2cee/logos/4fa4e2ca-ff32-44e6-b150-1fb735f1539b.png"/><itunes:season>1</itunes:season><itunes:episode>5</itunes:episode><itunes:title>Episode 5- The Reality of Co-Parenting: Teenagers, Schedules, and the Hard Stuff</itunes:title><itunes:episodeType>full</itunes:episodeType></item><item><title><![CDATA[Going Back to Move Forward]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p>I thought leaving my hometown meant I was growing.<br />Turns out, I had a lot more growing to do.</p><p>In this episode, I share what it was like to move away with the wrong partner, build a life that didn’t feel right, and then make the hard decision to come back home. Not because I failed — but because I finally chose myself.</p><p>This is about divorce, humility, healing, and how sometimes the place you ran from becomes the place you’re rebuilt.</p><p>And somewhere in the middle of all that… I found the right one.</p>]]></description><guid isPermaLink="false">b5e1bf48-2a02-4afb-9b32-99843a930617</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Nikki]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 16 Feb 2026 01:00:59 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.riverside.com/hosting-analytics/media/e41a3990ad0cc4b7ba80d8f8fec551f8865edd97074c648f2cac15e125ee9b3a/eyJlcGlzb2RlSWQiOiJiNWUxYmY0OC0yYTAyLTRhZmItOWIzMi05OTg0M2E5MzA2MTciLCJwb2RjYXN0SWQiOiIwZGJiMWMwNi0xODhlLTQ5NjMtODlhNS05ODE0ODE0YjJjZWUiLCJhY2NvdW50SWQiOiI2OTg2NDJmZGU5NTFkNTA2OGUwMTEwOWQiLCJwYXRoIjoibWVkaWEvY2xpcHMvNjk5MjZiMGE1YzAxMTg1YjA2YWRiZDRkL2t5bGUtcm9iaW5zb25zLXN0dWRpby1wQkdoUC1jb21wb3Nlci0yMDI2LTItMTZfXzEtNTUtMzgubXAzIn0=.mp3" length="23055194" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:summary>&lt;p&gt;I thought leaving my hometown meant I was growing.&lt;br /&gt;Turns out, I had a lot more growing to do.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;In this episode, I share what it was like to move away with the wrong partner, build a life that didn’t feel right, and then make the hard decision to come back home. Not because I failed — but because I finally chose myself.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;This is about divorce, humility, healing, and how sometimes the place you ran from becomes the place you’re rebuilt.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;And somewhere in the middle of all that… I found the right one.&lt;/p&gt;</itunes:summary><itunes:explicit>no</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>00:16:01</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://hosting-media.riverside.com/media/podcasts/0dbb1c06-188e-4963-89a5-9814814b2cee/logos/4fa4e2ca-ff32-44e6-b150-1fb735f1539b.png"/><itunes:season>1</itunes:season><itunes:episode>4</itunes:episode><itunes:title>Going Back to Move Forward</itunes:title><itunes:episodeType>full</itunes:episodeType></item><item><title><![CDATA[Episode 3: When the Ground Wouldn’t Stay Still]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p>What happens when the people meant to protect you start disappearing right in front of you?</p><p>In this episode, I take you into the beginning of my parents’ drug use — when things shifted from unstable to unpredictable. The late nights. The tension you could feel before you could explain it. The quiet ways a child learns to read a room just to survive it.</p><p>We talk about what it’s like to move over and over again, never fully unpacking, never fully settling. How instability becomes normal. How you grow up fast without realizing you had to. And how, even in the middle of chaos, resilience starts forming.</p><p>This isn’t about blame. It’s about truth.</p><p>It’s about what it does to a kid when home doesn’t feel steady — and how that kid eventually learns to build something different.</p><p>If you’ve ever felt like you had to become strong before you were ready, this one’s for you.</p>]]></description><guid isPermaLink="false">d0185d7e-8211-45e6-9c59-33f3d7567e95</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Nikki]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Wed, 11 Feb 2026 22:24:04 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.riverside.com/hosting-analytics/media/607e94a731150bf3fcb896d489a0aba5cc3d78a4eb731284d0fb2c3158cfc658/eyJlcGlzb2RlSWQiOiJkMDE4NWQ3ZS04MjExLTQ1ZTYtOWM1OS0zM2YzZDc1NjdlOTUiLCJwb2RjYXN0SWQiOiIwZGJiMWMwNi0xODhlLTQ5NjMtODlhNS05ODE0ODE0YjJjZWUiLCJhY2NvdW50SWQiOiI2OTg2NDJmZGU5NTFkNTA2OGUwMTEwOWQiLCJwYXRoIjoibWVkaWEvY2xpcHMvNjk4ZDAwMmRjMTIzOTZmNWQxZGU3ZDVkL2t5bGUtcm9iaW5zb25zLXN0dWRpby1wQkdoUC1jb21wb3Nlci0yMDI2LTItMTFfXzIzLTE4LTE5Lm1wMyJ9.mp3" length="37713023" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:summary>&lt;p&gt;What happens when the people meant to protect you start disappearing right in front of you?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;In this episode, I take you into the beginning of my parents’ drug use — when things shifted from unstable to unpredictable. The late nights. The tension you could feel before you could explain it. The quiet ways a child learns to read a room just to survive it.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;We talk about what it’s like to move over and over again, never fully unpacking, never fully settling. How instability becomes normal. How you grow up fast without realizing you had to. And how, even in the middle of chaos, resilience starts forming.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;This isn’t about blame. It’s about truth.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;It’s about what it does to a kid when home doesn’t feel steady — and how that kid eventually learns to build something different.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;If you’ve ever felt like you had to become strong before you were ready, this one’s for you.&lt;/p&gt;</itunes:summary><itunes:explicit>no</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>00:26:11</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://hosting-media.riverside.com/media/podcasts/0dbb1c06-188e-4963-89a5-9814814b2cee/logos/4fa4e2ca-ff32-44e6-b150-1fb735f1539b.png"/><itunes:season>1</itunes:season><itunes:episode>3</itunes:episode><itunes:title>Episode 3: When the Ground Wouldn’t Stay Still</itunes:title><itunes:episodeType>full</itunes:episodeType></item><item><title><![CDATA[Episode 2: Built in Isolation]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p></p><p>I didn’t grow up with crowds, convenience, or a clear path. I grew up in an oil field camp, surrounded by distance and silence. In this episode, I talk about how isolation didn’t limit my future — it prepared me for it. A success story that didn’t start in comfort, but in resilience.</p>]]></description><guid isPermaLink="false">8da80a16-7c50-4566-bd27-be7c9109465f</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Nikki]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Tue, 10 Feb 2026 15:45:04 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.riverside.com/hosting-analytics/media/fd2e6b2f0ded86f81a2b8ae48cda5f11786fda8a91268dbb8edc84ae69483298/eyJlcGlzb2RlSWQiOiI4ZGE4MGExNi03YzUwLTQ1NjYtYmQyNy1iZTdjOTEwOTQ2NWYiLCJwb2RjYXN0SWQiOiIwZGJiMWMwNi0xODhlLTQ5NjMtODlhNS05ODE0ODE0YjJjZWUiLCJhY2NvdW50SWQiOiI2OTg2NDJmZGU5NTFkNTA2OGUwMTEwOWQiLCJwYXRoIjoibWVkaWEvY2xpcHMvNjk4YjM1MDk2YWE3OGU4OTUzOWNhYWQxL2t5bGUtcm9iaW5zb25zLXN0dWRpby1wQkdoUC1jb21wb3Nlci0yMDI2LTItMTBfXzE0LTM5LTIxLm1wMyJ9.mp3" length="28237470" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:summary>&lt;p&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I didn’t grow up with crowds, convenience, or a clear path. I grew up in an oil field camp, surrounded by distance and silence. In this episode, I talk about how isolation didn’t limit my future — it prepared me for it. A success story that didn’t start in comfort, but in resilience.&lt;/p&gt;</itunes:summary><itunes:explicit>no</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>00:19:37</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://hosting-media.riverside.com/media/podcasts/0dbb1c06-188e-4963-89a5-9814814b2cee/logos/4fa4e2ca-ff32-44e6-b150-1fb735f1539b.png"/><itunes:season>1</itunes:season><itunes:episode>2</itunes:episode><itunes:title>Episode 2: Built in Isolation</itunes:title><itunes:episodeType>full</itunes:episodeType></item><item><title><![CDATA[Episode 1: Why This Podcast Exists]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p></p><p>Most of us are building our lives in the middle of uncertainty — not after we’ve “made it.”<br />In this first episode, I explain why <i>Built From the Mess</i> exists, who it’s meant for, and what kind of conversations I want to have here. This podcast isn’t about perfect paths — it’s about real ones.</p>]]></description><guid isPermaLink="false">5e7914e9-3835-4d6a-ba52-faa9349ce188</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Nikki]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 09 Feb 2026 19:20:48 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.riverside.com/hosting-analytics/media/59c62ce9f61b9d9cfd914095928ed146a124415836d6e4649e252ab11b9990f3/eyJlcGlzb2RlSWQiOiI1ZTc5MTRlOS0zODM1LTRkNmEtYmE1Mi1mYWE5MzQ5Y2UxODgiLCJwb2RjYXN0SWQiOiIwZGJiMWMwNi0xODhlLTQ5NjMtODlhNS05ODE0ODE0YjJjZWUiLCJhY2NvdW50SWQiOiI2OTg2NDJmZGU5NTFkNTA2OGUwMTEwOWQiLCJwYXRoIjoibWVkaWEvY2xpcHMvNjk4YTJhYjhkMzA2Yjk2MTAzYTY3YzZhL2t5bGUtcm9iaW5zb25zLXN0dWRpby1wQkdoUC1jb21wb3Nlci0yMDI2LTItOV9fMTktNDMtNC5tcDMifQ==.mp3" length="19693548" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:summary>&lt;p&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Most of us are building our lives in the middle of uncertainty — not after we’ve “made it.”&lt;br /&gt;In this first episode, I explain why &lt;i&gt;Built From the Mess&lt;/i&gt; exists, who it’s meant for, and what kind of conversations I want to have here. This podcast isn’t about perfect paths — it’s about real ones.&lt;/p&gt;</itunes:summary><itunes:explicit>no</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>00:13:41</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://hosting-media.riverside.com/media/podcasts/0dbb1c06-188e-4963-89a5-9814814b2cee/logos/4fa4e2ca-ff32-44e6-b150-1fb735f1539b.png"/><itunes:season>1</itunes:season><itunes:episode>1</itunes:episode><itunes:title>Episode 1: Why This Podcast Exists</itunes:title><itunes:episodeType>full</itunes:episodeType></item></channel></rss>